Lolx

Hey..^^

I'm glad that when I need someone to chat, you're here for me..

I'm glad that you've gave me a lots and lots of chance..

I'm glad that you treat me as a BFF..
I'm glad that you've been change your attitude..
Thx you alot for these..><''
I've realise that I've really change..

And by the way im getting worst and WORST!!!! Damn it!!
I doesn't know why?!

I know you will said ''because I follow with my gang of friendz'' isn't it?!
I don't think so, because I follow with a gang of friendz, thats why I only change?!
No way, I don't think is like this..(maybe)
Or can I tell you that, this time I change my attitude is because i've been single now..><''

Miracle thing will be happen anytime or anywhere..

So maybe is the reason too ya..^^

I doesn't admit it previously because I didn't realise that I've change..

I feel that Im still the same..(thats truth)

But now I only feel that..

Tell you the truth..
I admit that I've really changes alot..
I know this..
But I've no way to know the reason why?!
If can I really need to know..
But I can tell you..Previously you said i've change my attitude..
I can said THAT IS because of this!!!! Don't ask me why?! Because me myself also doesn't know the reason?! lolx....><''
I also wanna the old VANESSA KEE!!!! But maybe is too late for it..
Or someone can try to help me?! I'll be glad for you..^^
Hey..Can I tell you something?!
It will be very hurt for you, if you know this as well..
I apologize to you if I really hurt you ya..
Don't you think that you always argue with me then I'll just let you?!
Tell you the reason..
Because I doesn't like to argue with friendz, expecially I treat them as BFF..
But now I doesn't wanna to....Coz I really can't do it anymore!!
Im so SORRY..
I too broad minded/ 我太大方了..I can't let it happen again..
I told myself that I always let people win..
What about me?! Do I need to win also?!
Is stupid/idiot keep doing like this!!Im a human being too, have to survive also..
Lolx....
So rather I change my mind, I don't wanna be like this anymore..
Just let me to be selfish abit..
And about your attitide..
I think you're kinda narrow minded/小气 person..
Honestly tell you the truth..
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!
Im sorry..
Sometime I really wanna scold bad word,but not infront of you?!
Because I really beh tahan your attitude jor!!!!
At last I also didn't scold it out, because I told myself that I still treat you as friendz..
And I seldom or can said I didn't said before too?!
Tuesday, when I went recess with you..I told u some secret..
But you use that to zat me zat me..
Walao....Ask u to stop or I just pretend that im angry, but you still keep on zat me..
Hmm..Excuse..who's the 1 who zat me 1st using the guy name?! Thats why I don't wanna care bout you..lolx..><'' I just pretend that im angry, actually I won't so easily get angry geh..
But the opposite way..You angry bout me.. PUI!! Laa weihh..
Who keep zat me untill non-stop?! YOU!!!! And I dont't even angry.. Damn!!
Overall you the 1 who zat me and you the 1 who angry..LOLX!!
Im sorry I said till like this..I really very gekk jor....
I can't stop myself for being like this..><''
Repeat the same thing again: I CAN'T STAND YOUR ATTITUDE!!!!
Shit!!!!
I doesn't wanna argue with you actually..
But you always did the same thing, make yourself don't wanna choi me at school..
Lolx..I DON'T CARE!!!! I said hey to you..but you dun care bout me.. I smile to you, but you didn't care bout me....because I doesn't know you're angry bout me?!?! That's why Im STUPID.. I'll not ever did these idiotic thing again..
I change my attitude/character..
So please understand me~~><"
I really wanna cry it out..
I know that I always cry..But I think crying, it will be much better for me..
I'll feel better as well..><''
But the thing is my tears doesn't wanna drop it out..
Is all dry..
Slap me/ hit me/ bit me/ kick me or try to scold me, let me know whats call pain pain..(hurt)

Hope that you will read this..
And of cause understand it..^^