A Lesson

Hey..
Rachael,
I have learn a lesson from him..
After these days has past thru,
I keep asking myself many question..
For example, ''Why will like this/that?!''
Keep think about previously what had happen..
I really knows alot of the reason/thing..
Sometimes when I think, I feel regret bout something that what I have did previously..
I keep repeatting telling myself that,
''Why previously isn't it I not enough appreciate him?!"
''Why didn't I tell him that I doing something, so can't sms..''
''Why when sometime he sms me I didn't reply him?!''
But sometime he ''O.o'', so I nothing to said..
And + sometime he called me, I didn't pick up because I didn't heard my hp ringing..
HaizZ....><
''Why I didn't sms him when I'm bored/when I'm free?!''
Actually this..I had a reason....
Is because I feel like later he feel I'm annoying/irritating?!..
(I don't know, just guessing) :[
But all I did is just let him think that I don't even bother him,
Why always didn't sms him find him and chat?!..
HaizZ....
''Why didn't I try to let him what he want?!''
I want but just doesn't know why I can't do it..
My mind keep said that I want I want,
But I didn't do it, also don't know why..
HaizZ....
Remember when that time Sunday, November 6th went IOI with you(Rachael), him and lots more..
I really wanted to....to....aiyaya..........
You know de la..
Hehe....^^
But I just don't know why I didn't do it..
Stupid me..Got a chance also don't wanna appreciate..
HaizZ....(Regret)
Still got much more I keep repeatting asking myself..
And I feel lots more regret about it..
But now 2:08am Nite nite and Morning....
^^ Love ya ''Rachael''..Muackk....